Welcome to Motherhood

The honest truth? It’s freakin hard. Having two small babies, one who walks, runs, and gets hurt every 3 seconds, and one who needs constant attention, is a challenge. I feel like I am constantly trying to catch my breath. Even with help, it's exhausting. I sometimes want to lock myself in my room and just lay in bed for 30 minutes alone with my eyes closed. I’m not even tryin to sleep! I just want to close my eyes. But that isn't the reality. When you have two babies under two years of age, you are constantly on. You don't really get a break... Because two kids napping at the same time doesn't often happen. And unless you have a maid, cook, and dog walker...  there are plenty of things to occupy the occasional 20min lapse your two babes are peacefully sleeping... like going to the bathroom alone.

I once said Brynne would never watch TV, eat junk food, and she would have a bath every day. At this point we are eating hotdogs often in front of a screen playing counting songs, because if it's semi educational it doesn't feel as wrong. We also are on day 3 of no bath... Why? Because mom is freakin tired. Don't worry, she will have one today. Back to screen time... I was the awful mom who couldn't believe people would put their kids in front of a screen... And if I am being honest, I totally judged. That was the total jerk pre-kids me. We have resorted to 1-2 shows in the morning and those "educational" songs during breakfast. Does Baby Shark count as educational? Lol. Brynne actually eats better/more when she watches these shows as I hand shove pieces of food into her mouth. I walk through the kitchen loading/unloading dishes, putting things away, throwing things away, and usually with little gal in my arms... Because of course this kid NEVER wants to be put down.

I try my darnedest to get these two out of the house at least once a day. Why? Because I will go out of my mind if we don't. It also gives me an opportunity to get drive thru coffee and possibly drink it while it is hot. Some of our favorite "pack them up and get out of the house activities" include checking out different libraries, play spaces, grocery stores, and of course... Target... Because if you don't do a weekly Target run, are you even really a mom? I am pretty sure the customer service guy knows me by name at this point. I have had to buy and return so many items for Holly because she literally went from size 0-3m to 6m over night. People ask me, "what are you feeding her?!" Lol. Oh, and if you are ever not in a hurry next time you see a mom and her two small kids at the grocery store/target checkout line... You might want to consider letting her go first... Because it is only a matter of minutes before one of them has a royal meltdown... but that’s really up to you, and don’t say I didn’t warn you!

Gone are the days of a daily hot shower. You know, showers where you just stand there and love the hot water hitting your skin and think nothing of it. Showers are now a luxury. You can either shower instead of running errands, shower while your babies nap (a true rarity) and hope one doesn’t wake up screaming, or wait until they go to bed... and avoid every creeky floorboard on your way to the bathroom and spend a full hour just standing there in peace praying the sound of the shower or exhaust fan doesn’t wake one of them. True story, my kids get bathed more than I do. Also, please don’t be scared of my 25 inch think eyebrows accompanied by a growing unibrow.... I’ll get to it when I can. And my nine inch nails? Well, that’s a full hour plus of someone willing to watch both my babes during daytime hours. So guess what? I’ll just keep peeling this 3 week old no- chip mani and hope that no one notices the hot mess that is my nails. I’ll continue hiding my pedicure lacking toes, and I’ll keep rockin the mom bun.

I am sure I will look back and wish I could have this time back. I know I will see pictures of my tired self holding my beautiful babies in disbelief at how they are so big now. I’ll miss these days when they are gone. My life is anything but glamorous. I currently have a circus in my living room... free admission if you are willing to hold, feed, and change a baby. My car is packed with baby paraphernalia as is every room in my house... literally. What normal person has 3 pack and plays?! We have more baby contraptions than buy buy baby. I could probably run a daycare and need to buy absolutely nothing.

I could go on and on about how much different it is having two instead of one. At the end of the day, the restless nights, tired eyes, messy house, greasy hair, few showers,  and the 37483883?$ hours it takes to get out of the house are all worth the endless snuggles and heart exploding love. Like I’m not kidding when I say I legit have heart eyes when I look at these beautiful gals. I wouldn’t change a thing! Well, maybe I would change the whole cold coffee thing... because hot coffee is just sooooo good!