A Flashback
Today I was at the doctors office for routine pregnancy checkup. As I was sitting in my room waiting for my doctor I heard a girl shriek in shear horror, followed by uncontrollable sobbing for what seemed like 20mins. I knew. That was me a little over 2 years ago. I just knew. I could hear her sobbing and saying, "no, my baby."
I absolutely lost it. My heart broke for her. I couldn't hold back tears. I immediately remembered my own experience. The moment I experienced true heartbreak and how my life changed forever. I wanted so badly to hug her.
When the doctor came in she could tell I was clearly crying. She also looked visibly upset, as she had clearly just let the room of this patient.. She knew I knew. I asked her. She shook her head. She put her head down for a minute. We are only human.
I will think about this girl often. I don't know her. I'll never know who she is... But I'll never forget the sound of her sadness and the familiarity of her sorrow. I'll never forget the flashbacks of walking back through the waiting room in a foggy tearful daze. I think about what lies ahead for her. The long days and nights. The constant reminders. The crushed dreams of the future. As I lay down tonight and pray for my own babies, I will pray for her.
I absolutely lost it. My heart broke for her. I couldn't hold back tears. I immediately remembered my own experience. The moment I experienced true heartbreak and how my life changed forever. I wanted so badly to hug her.
When the doctor came in she could tell I was clearly crying. She also looked visibly upset, as she had clearly just let the room of this patient.. She knew I knew. I asked her. She shook her head. She put her head down for a minute. We are only human.
I will think about this girl often. I don't know her. I'll never know who she is... But I'll never forget the sound of her sadness and the familiarity of her sorrow. I'll never forget the flashbacks of walking back through the waiting room in a foggy tearful daze. I think about what lies ahead for her. The long days and nights. The constant reminders. The crushed dreams of the future. As I lay down tonight and pray for my own babies, I will pray for her.
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